A certain problem has arisen over the last several weeks. An earlier post regarding my wife leaving explains, but I find myself having issues socializing with anyone due to fears I didn't have before.
The problem arises that now that half of my circle of friends has evaporated, and the other half are really only work friends, I find it incredibly difficult to find others to talk to.
Dating sites are obviously out, not for the reasons that you might think though. Why in the world would I even think about dating someone now? I mean, if a 13 year relationship evaporated so quickly, why in the world would I risk putting myself back out there for even further disappointment?
Going out to bars isn't my bag. Got out of that a long time ago. But it is still a fact that humans are social creatures, and thus I need to find that outlet so that I might be able to mingle with others socially to keep a normal happy lifestyle.
It is a difficult thing, especially with my status. I am resolved to tell anyone about my current situation, just as I did initially when put on the registry. I found though that when I told it initially, I lost all but a very small group of true friends. So the question is, how in the heck will I be able to meet others, and inform them of my registry inclusion? This is a problem that I have not had to deal with for several years, and I am out of practice on how to accomplish it in a constructive way.
Any Suggestions?
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
So what's with all the slanted RSO stories lately?
Is it the fact that the legislators haven't past enough laws to take away more rights of ex-offenders? Or did some news reporters get additional DWI's and they want to divert attention?
Seriously though, What's up with all of the stories on things that are not illegal?
Seriously though, What's up with all of the stories on things that are not illegal?
Monday, April 11, 2011
Life's Changes
Well, I guess it was time for a change for her. I'm not angry at her, but am very sad obviously.
My wife of several years decided that she needed to look up her previous boyfriend (one she dated before we married). They've been carrying on a relationship for about a while now, I only recently found out after she had left. She's turns 50 next year, so I guess she needed to grab up some new dick, you know just in case everything goes badly for her at 51... When he dumps her, I might laugh, but I am unsure at present.
What a waste, honestly. It is tough enough to have to explain that mom is a just one level above street hooker to the kids, yet she wants to play like all is normal.. hard thing to do. Then when one looks back at so many years, and you have to question, was it all an act? Was I a security blanket for her, sheltering her from her former husband and his physically abusive behaviors? I have no idea. All I know is that my life as I knew it is now lost. My direction is gone, and my purpose is somewhat faded.
Yeah, I will move forward from a life objective point of view, but damn it hurts to be used like this. To invest so much time, effort, love, life on someone that wanted you only for security, then will hop in the sack with a former fuck because he FINALLY completed his education (not bad for a 44 year old huh?) .. what a fucking waste. Shout out to that retard.. I completed MINE in my 20's...
Karma is a bitch, it will catch them both.
Just in case anyone reads this, I am not looking for sympathy or anything like that. it just helps to vent. Oh, and for anyone that wants to claim this is due to my 'status' or for my crime, go fuck yourself. This is strictly a case of an old whore that decided she needed to move along before her junk dried up..
My wife of several years decided that she needed to look up her previous boyfriend (one she dated before we married). They've been carrying on a relationship for about a while now, I only recently found out after she had left. She's turns 50 next year, so I guess she needed to grab up some new dick, you know just in case everything goes badly for her at 51... When he dumps her, I might laugh, but I am unsure at present.
What a waste, honestly. It is tough enough to have to explain that mom is a just one level above street hooker to the kids, yet she wants to play like all is normal.. hard thing to do. Then when one looks back at so many years, and you have to question, was it all an act? Was I a security blanket for her, sheltering her from her former husband and his physically abusive behaviors? I have no idea. All I know is that my life as I knew it is now lost. My direction is gone, and my purpose is somewhat faded.
Yeah, I will move forward from a life objective point of view, but damn it hurts to be used like this. To invest so much time, effort, love, life on someone that wanted you only for security, then will hop in the sack with a former fuck because he FINALLY completed his education (not bad for a 44 year old huh?) .. what a fucking waste. Shout out to that retard.. I completed MINE in my 20's...
Karma is a bitch, it will catch them both.
Just in case anyone reads this, I am not looking for sympathy or anything like that. it just helps to vent. Oh, and for anyone that wants to claim this is due to my 'status' or for my crime, go fuck yourself. This is strictly a case of an old whore that decided she needed to move along before her junk dried up..
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Yay another new year, another bullshit law
Currently, The state is attempting to ramrod through a requirement that states if a person gets a divorce, they must tell the court during proceedings if they have an RSO in their extended family IF the divorce deals with custody rights.
First, What utter bullshit. Ok, lets continue with the ostracizing of RSOs, and put more pressure on them to re-offend. Shut them off from their families. I guess the government being wrong with their lying statements in the news needs to create animosity between family and the RSO so that Government officials and their hired lackeys can claim that the non-offending RSO causes the family unit to be broken up 'due to their crimes'
Second, The vast majority of us have moved past our harmful ways and are attempting to become as productive as this country will allow (which isn't much I dare say). I don't think the statistics can get much better, 93% commit no further offenses. No other group can claim that. Not your drunk drivers, not your drug pushers, not even your spouse abusers. So why is it again that government wants to put even more pressure on us for crimes committed once, and something we have gotten treatment for and are moving past in our lives?
If I have a nephew somewhere that I have no intention of visiting, haven't seen him in 20 years, why is it so important that he tells the court that I am an RSO again? See, yet another example of punishment by the legislature for a crime I committed over 10 years ago. Yeah, that's constitutional!
First, What utter bullshit. Ok, lets continue with the ostracizing of RSOs, and put more pressure on them to re-offend. Shut them off from their families. I guess the government being wrong with their lying statements in the news needs to create animosity between family and the RSO so that Government officials and their hired lackeys can claim that the non-offending RSO causes the family unit to be broken up 'due to their crimes'
Second, The vast majority of us have moved past our harmful ways and are attempting to become as productive as this country will allow (which isn't much I dare say). I don't think the statistics can get much better, 93% commit no further offenses. No other group can claim that. Not your drunk drivers, not your drug pushers, not even your spouse abusers. So why is it again that government wants to put even more pressure on us for crimes committed once, and something we have gotten treatment for and are moving past in our lives?
If I have a nephew somewhere that I have no intention of visiting, haven't seen him in 20 years, why is it so important that he tells the court that I am an RSO again? See, yet another example of punishment by the legislature for a crime I committed over 10 years ago. Yeah, that's constitutional!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I find it amazing as well
Over at Preaching to the Choir, a recent posting made me sit up a little more, and pay attention.
http://rantsofapublicdefender.blogspot.com/2010/01/we-rock.html
What I find interesting is not so much that the Attorney got fired up over her topic. It was this statement:
I find that telling with the state of things. She talks about the down-trodden being written in the Constitution however we see that laws everyday passed to punish us for things that occurred 5, 10 20 years ago. So To S, at Rantsofapublicdefender, I say kudos to you for believing; but there again, how can you be so naive?
http://rantsofapublicdefender.blogspot.com/2010/01/we-rock.html
What I find interesting is not so much that the Attorney got fired up over her topic. It was this statement:
So 200-some years ago, we wrote a contract with ourselves to make sure we would always respect the rights of the worst among us.
I find that telling with the state of things. She talks about the down-trodden being written in the Constitution however we see that laws everyday passed to punish us for things that occurred 5, 10 20 years ago. So To S, at Rantsofapublicdefender, I say kudos to you for believing; but there again, how can you be so naive?
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Been awhile
Life got busy, and so did I. But now I am back and continuing with this Blog.
Seems the Supreme Court has been busy lately, as well as states, to do their best to trample on the Constitutionally Promised rights of all citizens of the United States. Will research a few items to post.
if I still have followers, hope to see you soon.
S.O.
Seems the Supreme Court has been busy lately, as well as states, to do their best to trample on the Constitutionally Promised rights of all citizens of the United States. Will research a few items to post.
if I still have followers, hope to see you soon.
S.O.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
The inequalities of Sexual Assault
Read two very different articles last night from the news. The first one dealt with a 33 year old female volunteer scout master having "unforced' sex with a 16 year scout. The article named the ACCUSED, placed her picture in the article, and basically proceeded to make all sorts of toned down remarks on the alleged crime. What I found most striking about it, the comments section. People although condemning her actions, or alleged actions were very supportive of the idea of an older female with a late teen boy. Unlike what comments have been in the past when the roles were reversed.
The second article dealt with a 9 year old boy and a 6 year old girl. THe alleged offender, and his alleged victim were neither named, however the coments were much more harsh, calling the 9 year old boy child a monster, terrible, and some even saying that he should be kill "to stop him from ding it again" .
This is troubling. A 9 year old child who probably had limited knowledge of what he was doing is a monster, yet a 33 year old female is just a little mis-understood? How does that work out again?
While I find both behaviors troubling at best, I clearly see the outcome of decades of programming by NOW, Code Pink, et. al. citing the fragility of the female species on one hand, but how they should be giving equal status in the world on the other. A 33 year old male would not have been treated in the same way. In the past, 33 year old men in the same situation are "Monsters", "evil", "perverts"; While females, no matter what the age are "mis-understood", "Abused at home", "seeking to escape from wrongs in her current relationship". Grow the fuck up people. Your misguided, uneducated stance on all things Sexually Related are so infantile it is sickening. Either label all as the same or sit down, and shut the fuck up on the matter.
Most women are more evil in the area of Sexual assault, due to the planning of the assault, their ignoring of multiple parental and adult programming traits, while men are more driven by power and sexual attraction alone.
The second article dealt with a 9 year old boy and a 6 year old girl. THe alleged offender, and his alleged victim were neither named, however the coments were much more harsh, calling the 9 year old boy child a monster, terrible, and some even saying that he should be kill "to stop him from ding it again" .
This is troubling. A 9 year old child who probably had limited knowledge of what he was doing is a monster, yet a 33 year old female is just a little mis-understood? How does that work out again?
While I find both behaviors troubling at best, I clearly see the outcome of decades of programming by NOW, Code Pink, et. al. citing the fragility of the female species on one hand, but how they should be giving equal status in the world on the other. A 33 year old male would not have been treated in the same way. In the past, 33 year old men in the same situation are "Monsters", "evil", "perverts"; While females, no matter what the age are "mis-understood", "Abused at home", "seeking to escape from wrongs in her current relationship". Grow the fuck up people. Your misguided, uneducated stance on all things Sexually Related are so infantile it is sickening. Either label all as the same or sit down, and shut the fuck up on the matter.
Most women are more evil in the area of Sexual assault, due to the planning of the assault, their ignoring of multiple parental and adult programming traits, while men are more driven by power and sexual attraction alone.
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