Let's talk about the 5%

S.O.'s note. Most will find this entry VERY offensive. Some will find it somewhat abusive, and others will find it trashy and without merit. These are the people that I want as my target audience! If you find it abusive, assaultive, offensive then you might very well be a subject that I would want to read and understand this entry

I was sitting around thinking that I offer up some items regarding the 95 to 97% of us that go back to society and remake ourselves into the law abiding citizen's that we once were.

I know, we are deemed forever as lawless offenders, but those of us that are not offending, and have no want to re-offend know that our crimes were one small moment of idiocy that we know shall never repeat itself.

One thing I do not write about or write to more appropriately are the 3.5 to 5% of us that are either re-offending, will re-offend, or have an urge to re-offend again. This is one subject that the greater portion of us do not want to discuss. Either we are afraid that it will be used against us, will be a basis of more legislation, or are afraid to talk about due our collective situations. Well today, I want to at least bend that trend.

For myself, I have grown to understand that what I have done was a terrible act upon someone that I had no reason nor cause to harm. I agree with that, I was wrong in my person, and my treatment of the victim I created. That said, if I am going to proclaim honesty, I must also state that seeing that, I know the gravity of my crime and claim sole responsibility for it. I have no want nor need to attempt to fulfill whatever deviant desire that once held me to do that act upon another.

What needs to be addressed though are the 27500 people that are currently on the registry that are apt to re-offend according to statistics. No matter what your crime is, or was, no matter how you are still playing off the blame for your crime, YOU need to understand that it is wrong to continue to abide by such harmful and dangerous thoughts. You are the keeper of your own existence, you are the only ones that drive yourself to further create victims in this world.

I cannot pretend to understand how or why each person creates their fantasy realm to allow them to justify the creation of more victims. It is beyond my comprehension, however I can tell you that whatever reason that you use is skewed. There is no justification in creating more victims, and there is absolutely no justification in blaming them. No one is pushing you to do anything that is either illegal or immoral.

The ideas within your head are just that, YOUR IDEAS. No matter how you justify it, no one wants to be touched or looked at in any manner that is not under their full and consensual control. The thought that she is flirting is not an automatic agreement to your advances no matter how you think it is portrayed. The idea that she 'wants' it is not conclusive, unless she has quite adamantly stated such. The thought that the children in a picture are performing 'just for you' is in fact a fallacy. These people are all being harmed. That is the only fact in the matter.

All of our cognitive distortions at one time or another have allowed us to over look very visible, and evident signs that what we are, or are attempting to do, against the will of the other person. This is truth, no bullshit, fact. You create a situation in your mind that compounds more harmful thoughts leading to the attack of your victim, the reviewing of child porn, the continued existence of your deviant sexual thoughts. As I am speaking to the approx 27500 persons that will re-offend (statistically), it must be said that you need to immediately seek help.

You have been in the system, in one way or another. You have gone through the classes, paid the fines, done the time and yet, you are still contemplating re-offense as an option of something to do in your life. Speaking as one Sex Offender to another, you are fucked up dude! Seek help. If you are so far involved within yourself to look outwards, then look inwards and save yourself. If you are so far gone NOT to think about a victim that you wish to create, think about what is going to happen to you when you are caught. AND YOU WILL BE CAUGHT. They have your DNA, they have your picture, they have your life on file. Do you not think that they can catch you? If you honestly believe that you are smarter than that system, I have a question... How did you get caught the first time? IF you are so fucking smart, why didn't your smart ass get away with it the first time? It wasn't that the 'bitch' lied, nor was it that 'they' were out to get you. You were caught because you're a fucking idiot!

We all were. How did you think we were caught in the first place? We did something against the law that we knew was wrong, and we got caught from it. Either through our direct admission, or through our victim's outcry the law found us, and punished us for our behavior. It continues to punish us today, after we are off paper, after we have finished our probation. Get it through your head.

No one will 'get away' with it. Until the day you die, if you create another victim, you will always have it hanging over your head until they finally close the lid on you and bury your ass in the hole. So be a fucking man, and own up to your failings. Own up to the fact that you are lying to yourself. Do the right thing and seek help.

I went through 7 years of counseling. Here in Texas, depending on who and where you are sentenced, you can go to treatment for a couple of years, or you will have to go the entire length of time you are under the system. I was in one of those incidents, I had to go for the full period. I am thankful that I did. At year one, I didn't know shit. At year five, I knew it was my fault and at year 7, I was totally aware of the who, what, where, and why I did what I did. I had this full understanding. It was this epiphany moment that I will never forget. I sat in class, talking with everyone of my crime, and how it went down when suddenly I realized the first great mistake. That moment that I began to create my victim.

It wasn't that January evening that she IM'd me asking who I was. It wasn't the moment I went to pick her up after she called. It was the moment, several years prior, when I decided that women were all sluts, and that I would take it whenever I could get it. That was the first moment that I began to create my victim. You see, my crime isn't so much about a desire for a teen-aged female. My desire was for any female. It didn't matter, short, fat, tall, skinny, drunk, sober, cute, or ugly, as long as they had breasts and wanted to screw.. It did not matter. If they were interested, then I was too. I surrounded myself with people that were easy to talk into sex, thus I was 'rewarded' with it when ever I wanted it.

I have had sexual relations with over 250 women. At the time I was doing this, I was proud of the statistic. One to tell the fellas. I was the man. What I avoided thinking about however was the harm I was doing to people in general. The trust that I was causing these people to lose when I slept with them then wouldn't call them back. Or the promises that I was making, that I never intended to fulfill. This was all the beginning of the cycle to my offense.

After this long story, you might be asking 'what in the hell does this have to do with anything?'. It is exactly this, the sexual abuse of someone is not an overnight thing. I actually loved one or two of the women that I had slept with prior to committing my offense, but treated them like all the rest in the end. I know that it is an excuse to say,

"I don't know, I just did it."

"I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I didn't know."

"She gave herself to me, I didn't make her do anything"

and the greatest bullshit statement of them all,

"it is only pictures, there was no victim"

There is always a victim. I victimized almost every person I sexually came in contact with. Even though all but one were quite legal, and even thought of as a status thing in most guy circles. that doesn't make it right. It only means that legally, I have one true victim. but look at the people I left behind...

I may have gotten off track a bit, but I hope what I have put up here helps someone. I hope that one person reads this, abandons their want to re-offend. I hope that person seeks treatment and learns as most of the rest of us have learned that it is a harmful thing to allow the lies.

If you are an offender who is having a crisis contact a treatment group NOW. I cannot speak for all of them, but the one that I have gone to, and continue to go back to from time to time will immediately talk with you and try to get you away from creating that victim.

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Gentlemen, I come before you, a man powerless under the law, seeking
the redress of grievances done by the legislators of the country, and
by the executive power, that impermissibly infringes upon both human rights, and civil rights.



I write this, knowing that what I am to say is true, but it is a view
that few will look at, however, I know that you will understand.



There are two varieties of court in the country, civil or escrow court (as it was termed in the days of the founding of the Constitution)
and criminal court. One tries actions between individuals, for the
remediation of grievances under contract law. The other, provides
punishments due prisoners for wrongs done against society.



The Adam Walsh act
claims to be a civil matter.. but it provides punishment more
consistent with a criminal code. Further, it impermissibly co-mingles
the civil and the criminal justice system, without the protections
granted under the Criminal Justice system for criminal offenses.



Under the Federalist Papers 83,
this separation was discussed as a necessary guarantee of freedom.
However, this act also has other, perhaps unintended consequences.



The Adam Walsh act creates a unique situation. On one hand, it attempts
to protect society, on the other, it places a vulnerable population,
which, in general has had both its capability of self-protection
removed, and in many cases the right to vote, in a position where they
are vulnerable to vigilantes.
Further, it places limits on where such people can live, advertises
their location, making them more vulnerable to attacks, financial
fraud, and property damage, and further creates situations where
friends, neighbors, and family members (including children) are
endangered without recourse to law.



Our constitution
guarantees certain rights, and recognizes that other rights exist, from
the state of humanity itself. Among these rights were the right to
life, to liberty, to property, and to security.



Removing these rights by writ is prohibited, under Article 1, Section 9 of the US consittution, as well as Article 1, Section 10.
There is no power granted to the legislature to remove rights, for any
group of people, or for all persons, by writ. Such a power was
specifically prohibited, and discussed in detail in the Federalist
papers. The federalist 48 was specific in the reasons behind the limitations to the congressional powers on this subject, as was the Federalist 83.



The legislative department derives a superiority in our governments
from other circumstances. Its constitutional powers being at once more
extensive, and less susceptible of precise limits, it can, with the
greater facility, mask, under complicated and indirect measures, the
encroachments which it makes on the co-ordinate departments. It is not
unfrequently a question of real nicety in legislative bodies, whether
the operation of a particular measure will, or will not, extend beyond
the legislative sphere. On the other side, the executive power being
restrained within a narrower compass, and being more simple in its
nature, and the judiciary being described by landmarks still less
uncertain, projects of usurpation by either of these departments would
immediately betray and defeat themselves. Nor is this all: as the
legislative department alone has access to the pockets of the people,
and has in some constitutions full discretion, and in all a prevailing
influence, over the pecuniary rewards of those who fill the other
departments, a dependence is thus created in the latter, which gives
still greater facility to encroachments of the former.



The first example is that of Virginia, a State which, as we have seen, has expressly declared in its constitution,
that the three great departments ought not to be intermixed. The
authority in support of it is Mr. Jefferson, who, besides his other
advantages for remarking the operation of the government, was himself
the chief magistrate of it. In order to convey fully the ideas with
which his experience had impressed him on this subject, it will be
necessary to quote a passage of some length from his very interesting "Notes on the State of Virginia,"
p. 195. "All the powers of government, legislative, executive, and
judiciary, result to the legislative body. The concentrating these in
the same hands, is precisely the definition of despotic government. It
will be no alleviation, that these powers will be exercised by a
plurality of hands, and not by a single one. One hundred and
seventy-three despots would surely be as oppressive as one. Let those
who doubt it, turn their eyes on the republic of Venice. As little will
it avail us, that they are chosen by ourselves. An ELECTIVE DESPOTISM
was not the government we fought for; but one which should not only be
founded on free principles, but in which the powers of government
should be so divided and balanced among several bodies of magistracy,
as that no one could transcend their legal limits, without being
effectually checked and restrained by the others. For this reason, that
convention which passed the ordinance of government, laid its
foundation on this basis, that the legislative, executive, and
judiciary departments should be separate and distinct, so that no
person should exercise the powers of more than one of them at the same
time. BUT NO BARRIER WAS PROVIDED BETWEEN THESE SEVERAL POWERS. The
judiciary and the executive members were left dependent on the
legislative for their subsistence in office, and some of them for their
continuance in it. If, therefore, the legislature assumes executive and
judiciary powers, no opposition is likely to be made; nor, if made, can
be effectual; because in that case they may put their proceedings into
the form of acts of Assembly, which will render them obligatory on the
other branches. They have accordingly, IN MANY instances, DECIDED
RIGHTS which should have been left to JUDICIARY CONTROVERSY, and THE
DIRECTION OF THE EXECUTIVE, DURING THE WHOLE TIME OF THEIR SESSION, IS
BECOMING HABITUAL AND FAMILIAR. (Federalist 48)



I will add, as a fifth circumstance in the situation of the House of
Representatives, restraining them from oppressive measures, that they
can make no law which will not have its full operation on themselves
and their friends, as well as on the great mass of the society. This
has always been deemed one of the strongest bonds by which human policy
can connect the rulers and the people together. It creates between them
that communion of interests and sympathy of sentiments, of which few
governments have furnished examples; but without which every government
degenerates into tyranny. If it be asked, what is to restrain the House
of Representatives from making legal discriminations in favor of
themselves and a particular class of the society? I answer: the genius
of the whole system; the nature of just and constitutional laws; and
above all, the vigilant and manly spirit which actuates the people of
America, a spirit which nourishes freedom, and in return is nourished
by it.



If this spirit shall ever be so far debased as to tolerate a law not
obligatory on the legislature, as well as on the people, the people
will be prepared to tolerate any thing but liberty.



Such will be the relation between the House of Representatives and
their constituents. Duty, gratitude, interest, ambition itself, are the
chords by which they will be bound to fidelity and sympathy with the
great mass of the people. It is possible that these may all be
insufficient to control the caprice and wickedness of man. But are they
not all that government will admit, and that human prudence can devise?
Are they not the genuine and the characteristic means by which
republican government provides for the liberty and happiness of the
people? Are they not the identical means on which every State
government in the Union relies for the attainment of these important
ends? What then are we to understand by the objection which this paper
has combated? What are we to say to the men who profess the most
flaming zeal for republican government, yet boldly impeach the
fundamental principle of it; who pretend to be champions for the right
and the capacity of the people to choose their own rulers, yet maintain
that they will prefer those only who will immediately and infallibly
betray the trust committed to them?



Were the objection to be read by one who had not seen the mode prescribed by the Constitution
for the choice of representatives, he could suppose nothing less than
that some unreasonable qualification of property was annexed to the
right of suffrage; or that the right of eligibility was limited to
persons of particular families or fortunes; or at least that the mode
prescribed by the State constitutions was in some respect or other,
very grossly departed from. We have seen how far such a supposition
would err, as to the two first points. Nor would it, in fact, be less
erroneous as to the last. The only difference discoverable between the
two cases is, that each representative of the United States will be
elected by five or six thousand citizens; whilst in the individual
States, the election of a representative is left to about as many
hundreds. Will it be pretended that this difference is sufficient to
justify an attachment to the State governments, and an abhorrence to
the federal government? If this be the point on which the objection
turns, it deserves to be examined. (Federalist 57)



The supreme court has said that the constitution and the history thereof are silent on the matter of civil law and ex post facto,
therefore it is allowed.. I'd argue the following (written regarding
the right to jury in civil trials) as evidence against this.



With regard to civil causes, subtleties almost too contemptible for
refutation have been employed to countenance the surmise that a thing
which is only NOT PROVIDED FOR, is entirely ABOLISHED. Every man of
discernment must at once perceive the wide difference between SILENCE
and ABOLITION. But as the inventors of this fallacy have attempted to
support it by certain LEGAL MAXIMS of interpretation, which they have
perverted from their true meaning, it may not be wholly useless to
explore the ground they have taken.



The maxims on which they rely are of this nature: "A specification of
particulars is an exclusion of generals"; or, "The expression of one
thing is the exclusion of another." Hence, say they, as the Constitution
has established the trial by jury in criminal cases, and is silent in
respect to civil, this silence is an implied prohibition of trial by
jury in regard to the latter. (Federalist 83)



Further, I would argue that such a law would be utterly nonsensical
under the common law tradition of civil suits. Civil law at the time
was contract, tort, property, or escrow law, regarding private
individuals, and private matters, in direct contrast to the common law
criminal law which dealt with wrongs against the society.



Under civil law no punishment could be meted, not even a moment in
prison could be assessed. All judgments were remedial, and such
judgments could only occur in explicit or implied contract.



No civil law, further, could be imposed upon any person. Civil code, as
well, was an alien issue, the first civil code (a predecessor of the
Code Napoleon) coming in with the Louisiana Purchase. (currently still
the basis of Louisiana code).



Criminal law, however, is quite the opposite. Criminal law is imposed
by its very nature, and punitive, by providing for unique imprisonment
and loss of freedom, liberties, and rights.



How then is mandatory registration on pain of incarceration civil? How
is it thus legal to restrict the rights of men, not for what they do,
but for what they may, someday, perhaps do?



There are three aspects to any criminal law, first that the law must be
clear. The second test is one of fairness. The third test is one of
assumption of innocence. In primus, is the law clear? It establishes a
large number of punishments, increases minimum sentences.. but also
leaves the interpretation and application of the law, rather than being
codified, in the hands of the Attorney General of the United States. This is a strike against clarity, and the separation of powers.



The second test, fairness, is a subjective test. But according to this
test, is it 'fair' or 'reasonable' to expose a population to danger,
simply because one believes they may reoffend? Is this just or
reasonable? When divested of their ability to protect themselves,
labeled and demonized, how is it reasonable to expose them to those to
whom they have been labeled as demons? When it has been judged by the
Supreme Court that there is no protected property interest in police
protection, and that they are in truth there to simply catch criminals
and incarcerate, the police in many cases will not protect those thus
labeled.. and further in most cases cannot.



"Law enforcement agencies and personnel have no duty to protect
individuals from the criminal acts of others; instead their duty is to
preserve the peace and arrest law breakers for the protection of the
general public." (Lynch v. NC Dept. Justice)



". . . a government and its agents are under no general duty to provide
public services, such as police protection, to any particular
individual citizen."--Warren v. District of Columbia, 444 A.2d 1 (D.C.
App.181)



Cases known supporting this:



South v. Maryland, 59 U.S. (HOW) 396,15 L.Ed., 433 (1856)

Bowers v. DeVito, U.S. Court of Appeals, 7th Circuit, 686F.2d 616 (1882)

Riss v. City of New York, 293 N.Y. 2d 897 (1968)

Keane v. City of Chicago, 98 Ill App 2d 460 (1968)

Hartzler v. City of San Jose, App., 120 Cal. Rptr 5 (1975)

Reiff v. City of Philadelphia, 477F. Supp. 1262 (E.D.Pa. 1979)

Chapman v. City of Philadelphia, 434 A.2d 753 (Sup. Ct. Penn. 1981)

Warren v. District of Columbia, D.C. App., 444 A.2d 1 (1981)

Davidson v. City of Westminster, 32 C.3d 197,185 Cal. Rptr. 252,649

P.2d 894 (S.Ct. Cal. 1982)

Morgan v. District of Columbia, 468 A2d 1306 (D.C. App. 1983)

Morris v. Musser, 478 A.2d 937 (1984)

Calogrides v. City of Mobile, 475 So. 2d 560 (S.Ct. Ala. 1985)

Lynch v. N.C. Dept. of Justice, 376 S.E. 2nd 247 (N.C. App. 1989)

Marshall v. Winston, 389 S.E. 2nd 902 (Va. 1990)



After these things, it becomes plain that there is a protected
interest, a substantiative due process interest, in abolishing this
law. Further, it may well be that abolishment may come too late. Due to
the decision to distribute the data over the Internet, to use the
vernacular, the 'genie is out of the bottle'. There is no way to put
the knowledge held there back away, nor to delete it from all archives,
especially that of those who would willingly put it to malicious use.



After these things, we must ask, and remonstrate for injunctive relief.
By the right to redress of grievances, as well, we must insist upon the
restoration of our rights, the abolition of this law, and further, the
restoration of our ability to protect ourselves, as the government
cannot protect us.



We must seek injunctive relief not only for ourselves, but for our
families, our children, our friends, and our loved ones. This law does
not simply apply to the offender, it applies to those around the
offender. The innocents who are bullied, targeted, and harmed, not
because of their own actions, but because of a governmental backlash of
hatred, control, and intolerance.



Should this state continue, we will be ended, and so will the lives of
others who count on us. No right can be removed from any person without
causing that right to become a privilege in the eyes of the government.
Banishment, disarmament, concentration, and limitations on free speech
and association are the tools of tyranny.



The current law stands as a legislative bill of pains and penalties,
insofar as they have judged that offenders are guilty of the
possibility of a new crime, therefor they must pay. They must register,
they must obey restrictions on their livelihood, their location, their
communication, their families, their friends, and be legislated further
by whim and writ, to limit their rights without recourse to due process
of law. Should they refuse, they should be imprisoned.



Wherein is this American? Wherein does the United States gain such
power, that the congress can ignore the very foundation of their grant
of power?



No, the congress has no such power granted in the Constitution,
nor does the states. Article 1, section 9 specifically prohibits
attainder and ex post facto legislation. Article 1, section 10
specifically prohibits the same to the states.



It is time to end this. The persons labeled 'sex offenders'
according to the GOVERNMENT'S OWN STATISTICS have a lower reoffense
rate for any crime, as well as a low reoffense rate for sexual crimes.
The lies must end. If you do not believe me, do the research yourself.
Go to the department of justice. Go to the departments of correction.
The numbers are there, and available, if you look. Look at the studies,
and meta studies. Learn and understand, and think!



The actions of few, should not destroy the rights of all.