What to do when the chips are gone...

A certain problem has arisen over the last several weeks. An earlier post regarding my wife leaving explains, but I find myself having issues socializing with anyone due to fears I didn't have before.

The problem arises that now that half of my circle of friends has evaporated, and the other half are really only work friends, I find it incredibly difficult to find others to talk to.

Dating sites are obviously out, not for the reasons that you might think though. Why in the world would I even think about dating someone now? I mean, if a 13 year relationship evaporated so quickly, why in the world would I risk putting myself back out there for even further disappointment?

Going out to bars isn't my bag. Got out of that a long time ago. But it is still a fact that humans are social creatures, and thus I need to find that outlet so that I might be able to mingle with others socially to keep a normal happy lifestyle.

It is a difficult thing, especially with my status. I am resolved to tell anyone about my current situation, just as I did initially when put on the registry. I found though that when I told it initially, I lost all but a very small group of true friends. So the question is, how in the heck will I be able to meet others, and inform them of my registry inclusion? This is a problem that I have not had to deal with for several years, and I am out of practice on how to accomplish it in a constructive way.

Any Suggestions?

So what's with all the slanted RSO stories lately?

Is it the fact that the legislators haven't past enough laws to take away more rights of ex-offenders? Or did some news reporters get additional DWI's and they want to divert attention?

Seriously though, What's up with all of the stories on things that are not illegal?

Life's Changes

Well, I guess it was time for a change for her. I'm not angry at her, but am very sad obviously.

My wife of several years decided that she needed to look up her previous boyfriend (one she dated before we married). They've been carrying on a relationship for about a while now, I only recently found out after she had left. She's turns 50 next year, so I guess she needed to grab up some new dick, you know just in case everything goes badly for her at 51... When he dumps her, I might laugh, but I am unsure at present.

What a waste, honestly. It is tough enough to have to explain that mom is a just one level above street hooker to the kids, yet she wants to play like all is normal.. hard thing to do. Then when one looks back at so many years, and you have to question, was it all an act? Was I a security blanket for her, sheltering her from her former husband and his physically abusive behaviors? I have no idea. All I know is that my life as I knew it is now lost. My direction is gone, and my purpose is somewhat faded.

Yeah, I will move forward from a life objective point of view, but damn it hurts to be used like this. To invest so much time, effort, love, life on someone that wanted you only for security, then will hop in the sack with a former fuck because he FINALLY completed his education (not bad for a 44 year old huh?) .. what a fucking waste. Shout out to that retard.. I completed MINE in my 20's...

Karma is a bitch, it will catch them both.

Just in case anyone reads this, I am not looking for sympathy or anything like that. it just helps to vent. Oh, and for anyone that wants to claim this is due to my 'status' or for my crime, go fuck yourself. This is strictly a case of an old whore that decided she needed to move along before her junk dried up..

Yay another new year, another bullshit law

Currently, The state is attempting to ramrod through a requirement that states if a person gets a divorce, they must tell the court during proceedings if they have an RSO in their extended family IF the divorce deals with custody rights.

First, What utter bullshit. Ok, lets continue with the ostracizing of RSOs, and put more pressure on them to re-offend. Shut them off from their families. I guess the government being wrong with their lying statements in the news needs to create animosity between family and the RSO so that Government officials and their hired lackeys can claim that the non-offending RSO causes the family unit to be broken up 'due to their crimes'

Second, The vast majority of us have moved past our harmful ways and are attempting to become as productive as this country will allow (which isn't much I dare say). I don't think the statistics can get much better, 93% commit no further offenses. No other group can claim that. Not your drunk drivers, not your drug pushers, not even your spouse abusers. So why is it again that government wants to put even more pressure on us for crimes committed once, and something we have gotten treatment for and are moving past in our lives?

If I have a nephew somewhere that I have no intention of visiting, haven't seen him in 20 years, why is it so important that he tells the court that I am an RSO again? See, yet another example of punishment by the legislature for a crime I committed over 10 years ago. Yeah, that's constitutional!